The other day a weird thought kept creeping up in my mind. And while usually, I don’t pay heed to such dreadful things, (because obviously, I will go crazy if I fall prey to the many tricks of my mind) I don’t know why, but I gave a lot of thought to this one. The question that was bothering me was. ‘What if I knew I was going to die soon?’ (I know this sounds a little extreme, but don’t we always say that life is too short)
And the very next moment, I did not think about anybody in my life, not my parents, not my sisters, neither my niece (whom I love more than my life) and nor my pet (who is my life). Nope, I didn’t even think of my ex, whom I am supposed to still be in love with and neither did I think of my friends who have been a part of my life for more a decade.
Do you know what did I think about? I thought that I would want to travel to places I have never been to before. I would want to go and live in a small peaceful village in the hills. I know it sounds crazy, but what you would want to do in the last days of your life is truly what you want from life. It is what you need to do. Even if it means being disconnected from the world and running away to a remote town in some corner of the world.
But is this being selfish? I don’t know. But I think this is what is needed. It is better than being tired of doing things for people and not living the Life you wanna live. Some people will try to make you feel guilty about it. They will tell you that you have changed and that you do not care about them anymore. But don’t you listen to them. Feel free. Breathe. Be yourself. This is your life and you should not be judged for wanting to live it the way you want.
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