Lonely World…. Lonely Heart… Lonely Me…

Why is it that you feel so lonely at times? So lonely that even ur heartbeats sound like drums playin on a 2000 hz woofer. When you look around, you can't really see what's wrong. It all seems just fine. Your work is ok. Your family is surviving. Your friends are with you. You are socializing all the time. So what is the problem? What is it that makes you so low @ times? What is it that makes you wanna cry for no real reason? What is it that makes me write this blog? There is some loneliness. There's something inside me that is incomplete. There is someone who needs care and affection.

Not that I'm neglected or ill-treated. It’s just that sometimes it feels nice when someone makes u smile. It feels good when someone shows that they care. It feels alive when you are someone's priority. We all need that one person in life. That person who can't see anyone but you. That person who places ur happiness b4 anything in this world. That person who always supports u. That person who can make u smile and cry @ d same time. That person who no matter what is waitin 4 u @ d other end.

This person can be anyone. It can be your mother, your dad, your brother/sista, your friend, your lover, your child, your soul mate... Anyone.

I still can't figure out if I have met this person yet. Or am I still looking? I dunno if my life is fine or is it screwed up? I dun even know if this is where I wanted to be. Or this is the path that I wanna take from  here on. I dunno if my life is gonna get better or worse.

All I know is that I live each day with the hope that tomorrow will be worth living. Because life is too short. Make the most your time wid the people around u. Because with a blink of an eye, they'll be gone. They'll be somewhere else, living their life. They'll be busy in theirs and expect u to be busy in urs. But what they don't realize is that I stay exactly where they left me and moved on. I stand there and wait, expecting them to turn back. I stand there in hope of feeling that feeling of completeness again. I guess this is what makes me feel lonely. This is what makes me cry. But this is what I am and this is what I will be till I die. With so many heartbreaks and so many disappointments, I still live with hope in my heart. Hope to find the one. Hope to find friends who will love me for who I am.

People say you are a fool because you give too many chances to a person. But I just know how to love. I might get angry for a while. I might say mean things to u. But trust me... It takes me a blink to forget it too. All I know is to love people and the rest I leave on them. If I deserve it, they'll love me back. If not... I still have my loneliness... My tanhai...