Something Special!

Today felt nothing like a regular day. When I woke up, I didn't look at the clock or my phone, instead, I looked at your face, and smiled. As you lay there next to me, sleeping peacefully, I felt like the luckiest girl in the world. 

I carefully picked up the empty bottles and wine glasses, making sure you did not wake up. I cleaned the kitchen and watered the plants, smiling all this while thinking about last night when I had placed my head on your chest and slept while listening to the rhythm of your heartbeats.

When you came out of the room and said good morning, I could not contain my happiness and so I jumped in your arms and kissed you. I watched you make your special recipe of maggi while I tried to make tea for you just the way you like it. I couldn't have asked for a better start to my day. 

Listening to your favorite songs as we sat and had breakfast and then losing to you in all those games of cards. I really cannot put my finger on what was the best part of my day. Was it when we talked for hours or was it when we silently watched TV lying across from each other? 

There was nothing really special about today, yet, it was nothing like any other day. 

I have moved on!!!

When you meet the love of your life a long time after your breakup, you realize something. You realize that you have moved on.

Of course, I have. Because I did not feel a thing in that moment when I saw you. You were right there, standing in front of me, talking to me with those lips that used to kiss me some time ago. You shook my hands so casually with those hands that used to hug me and hold me like they would never let me go. You looked at me so indifferently with those eyes that used to make me feel like the most special person in the world.

I do not miss you at all. And I did not feel flushed even when we met. My heart did not race when I heard you walking towards me. My hands did not tremble when you extended yours to shake mine. My legs did not shiver when you told me to walk with you to the tea stall. My tummy did not churn when you stood there looking at me and making small talk.

Small talk? Really! You and I have spoken about our lives, our dreams, our childhood, our friends, our family, our insecurities, our secrets, our fears. And today, all you could come up with is, 'How's everyone at home?' I dunno what hurts more, your indifference or my undying love.

But at the end of the day, it does not matter. Because I will have to wake up tomorrow and face the world, and when anyone asks me about you, I will tell them the same thing, 'I have moved on.'

You are ONE!

I can't believe it has already been a year,
Feels like you just got here.

I still remember when I first laid eyes on you,
I hadn't seen anything prettier, wrapped in blue.

And then, a few months later, you showed me your smile,
That smile that makes everything worthwhile.

Here's to a life filled with love and fun,
But right now, let's just celebrate that you are ONE.

Don't break hearts....

Every time you ignore my calls, my heart breaks a little.

Every time you cancel our plans, my heart breaks a little.

Every time you don’t notice that I got a haircut, my heart breaks a little.

Every time you don’t remember my birthday, my heart breaks a little.

Every time you say you’ll call me back, and you don’t, my heart breaks a little.

When I give you another chance, the only thing I am worried about is whether I will ever be able to mend my broken heart, and when you finally go away for good, will I be able to let someone else find a place in there?

I know when you are hurt, you want to ignore people. You want to hurt them. But is that really worth it? Being mean to another person, who loves you, because they hurt you once, or because you don’t want to encourage their feelings, or your own.

Trust me, there is nothing that hurts more than loose ends. If you want to end it with someone, talk to them. Tell them that you are done. Don’t keep people hanging, because hope is what hurts more than a breakup. When you just stop talking to someone, or when you don’t answer someone’s proposal, they still have a small ray of hope, that you might say yes, or that you might answer their calls one day. And in this hope, while you go about your daily lives, that person is still standing where you left them. They try different ways to convince themselves, they try to be strong, they try to make resolutions, and every time they try, they break. And every time they break, they die a little inside.

Please don’t be the reason behind the destruction of another person. Because the wounds that you leave on someone’s heart are worse than physical ones. A person can survive with a broken limb, but no one can survive with a broken heart.

Spread smiles, spread love. Love is a beautiful thing that can fix any problem in the world. So if you are one of those lucky ones who has found someone who loves you, even if you don’t love them back, make sure you at least appreciate their feelings and keep them happy. It won’t even take too much effort, cauz even a simple hi from you can make their day.